tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-58327852011-04-22T06:00:21.257+08:00Gabby*Wabbyyeah whatever... ... ...CJnoreply@blogger.comBlogger1641100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1132729677459074272005-11-23T15:06:00.000+08:002005-11-23T15:07:57.470+08:00I have moved to http://takeurpic.multiply.comToo many sites, too many passwords and username to remember and less hassle.so you can view my pictures and blog at the same site.CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1131160614855134992005-11-05T11:05:00.000+08:002005-11-05T11:16:54.870+08:00CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1130294762602186362005-10-26T10:28:00.000+08:002005-10-26T10:46:02.610+08:00The past hasnt fade off. I can still remember the painand the betrayal. Sometimes, I see or hear things that remindsme of him and everything. There are no more feelings, but itstill hurts to think about it. Just the thought of him havingmade out with two different girls fills me with disgust and pain.One woman isnt enough, maybe he just needed three. I amnot unforgiving, I just cant forget. I CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1129952715852195682005-10-22T11:25:00.000+08:002005-10-22T11:45:15.856+08:00I'm in love. For quite sometime, I have been suppressing my feelings and I onlymade passing comments on that special someone. Now, I just want to say out loudthat I am very much in love with someone really special. Besides being my pillar ofstrength and someone I can seek solace in, he is also the core of the happiness thatI have been basking in for the pass few weeks.He complements me, and thereCJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1129890687258656232005-10-21T18:08:00.000+08:002005-10-21T18:31:27.263+08:00Dreaded, wore a skirt tad too short today.Dear was understanding and teasing me... yes yes...*adjusts skirt* Had japanese food for lunch. All the Nokiapeople having lunch together. Rare. Though I wished my bosseswere there. I love my boss! and my team! Suffering from a major headache now, the Managing Director'sPA is TORMENTING ME!!!!! She is naggy, noisy and full of complains.Complains and nags CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1129780485303791502005-10-20T11:30:00.000+08:002005-10-20T11:54:45.333+08:006 more working days and its back to school!!!Had to go to the airport yesterday to pick up some TVcommercial from a Finnish guy. It was so unglamorousholding a piece of paper, just so that he knows who I am.Damn I wasnt going to wite his name, so i just simply wrote"NOKIA". Trick worked, thank God. The guy had such a strongaccen, I had difficulty understanding half of what he said. ButI mastered CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1129344001087445892005-10-15T10:26:00.000+08:002005-10-15T10:40:01.093+08:00Finally weekend is here! I have been looking foward to the weekend like I never knew.This past week has been really tiring and hectic. If I didnt have the weekends, I mightburn out. It was fruitful though, because I learned alot and with this week, I stretched myability to cope with a high amount of stress. Im taking all the work and pressure in a positive light. Internship is great!Oh, I found CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1128571278474867682005-10-06T11:39:00.000+08:002005-10-06T12:01:18.486+08:00Ok, staying home and not going to work today. Much needed rest! Well, more like I amtrying to prevent myself from hahving more rashes. I am allergic to the office aircon system!Hah, they should clean the place up. Really.. Work has been a blast! Got to meet alot of important people, thanks to my CEO!! and of course my MD. Met the Managing Director of Sony BMG andsome other improtant people and CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1128070320086186252005-09-30T16:39:00.000+08:002005-09-30T16:54:02.773+08:00LADIES!! and gentlemen too if you are all interested in same sexaffair. TODAY I AM GOING TO TRY TO PIMP/AUCTION OFF TWO MEN WHO MADE MY LIFE A WHOLE LOT MORE INTERESTING.Item No.One: Paul AndersonOccupation: Senior Art Director or as whats written on hi business card,A COMLETE COCKHEAD(as suggested by Peter C.)Description: Laughs weird and loud. A good-lookerwho comes with a deflatable tummy (CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1127966315870776082005-09-29T11:46:00.000+08:002005-09-29T11:58:35.876+08:00Ok, I am going to do some facelifting for my blog. Soplease bear with how untidy my blog might end up looking.3 and a half weeks more and internship ends! Damn, its about time!Not like Im not enjoying my internship, I love it! The parties,the mad rush and of course the people. I love my bosses and the teamof people I work with. Im not bootlicking here, the people I work withare really awesome.GotCJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1127389148154310092005-09-22T19:07:00.000+08:002005-09-22T19:39:08.190+08:00Disclaimer: Today will just be a day of endless mindless rambling.If you have difficulty comprehending what I am trying to say,congratulations! You are on your way to being a certified bimbo/himbo of sorts.I WANT AN AUDI TT!!Okay, I have been saying that for the past few months now.Someone get me one so I can shut up!I WANT AN AUDI TT!!If you cannot give me an Audi TT, its ok, you can choose fromCJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1126520458143242692005-09-12T18:07:00.000+08:002005-09-12T18:20:58.530+08:00This entry might be boring for some as I will be talking about how happy I am at the moment and ifyou dislike me or have an issue with people being happy,please do yourself a favour and proceed to one of the links on your left.Thank you!Everything has been great!I am happy! Busy and runnning about but definitely notslowing down! I have so much to say, but nothing can be publish at this moment. CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1125797547437877232005-09-04T08:58:00.000+08:002005-09-04T09:32:27.443+08:00Did I ever say how much I love my friends! All of you!!Bumped into Anna and Pat the other day and gawd that made me realise howmuch I miss my friends, I hugged Pat and was kindda overwhelmed that I almost hugged her boyfriend, Mark, too. Hahaha, what a first impression i left on him huh..I have been really busy with work and all and Im so happy cos my Group Account DirectorMADE me a bohemian CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1124598727745433102005-08-21T12:20:00.000+08:002005-08-21T12:44:50.123+08:00I miss my long hair, look how happy I am with my long hair! BleahzOkay, I am a certified KLUTZ. I kept spilling drinks and soup yesterday..I almost lost my wallet too, but thank God some "honest" soul who found it gave it to the security.. you must be thinking why i did an inverted coma on the word 'honest'.thats because the person who returned my wallet conveniently took all my cash too...make CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1123650907103942952005-08-10T13:04:00.000+08:002005-08-10T13:15:07.110+08:00Hmmm.. all those of you who are interning at TODAY newspaper, please call me.Haha, must be one of you right?! Sabotage me by publishing my blog and my National Day entry on newspaper! I was so freaking worried cos I didnt exactly soun very patriotic. So pls warn in advance next time, so I can prepare my family doctor totreat me of heart attack or get an ambulance ready.This is my disclaimer:I CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1123550215714226642005-08-09T08:43:00.000+08:002005-08-09T10:58:58.960+08:00HAPPY NATIONAL DAY Singapore! Well I may be holding two passports, but I still love Singapore more(NDP tickets pls?!) Dear Singapore,you are successful and prosperous. Though you are small, its ok 'cos size doesnt really matter (yet).You make me feel weird cos you are older than my dad and yet u don bald.I love the colours on your flag cos red and white makes pink (which happens to be one of my CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1123396860787981982005-08-07T14:30:00.000+08:002005-08-07T14:41:00.793+08:00today is such a pleasant day, a well deserved one, given that the whole week has been busy busy busy...im still contemplating whether i should go out, mom just gave me money and said my dad might give me money to buy new cosmetics.. you see people, i have one of the most sensitive skin in this living universe...im sensitive to almost everything and that makes me high maintanence (yes i am CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1123054141932253442005-08-03T15:06:00.000+08:002005-08-03T15:29:01.936+08:00things have been slow and nice...i love the way things are now... dear and i have been closer and much more aware of how much we wanna be together,ever since those unpleasant things that happened...everything has been fine at work so far, and im blessed.. thank you everyone and baby dear...right now, im facing alot of difficulties in my life.. but its ok..it makes me stronger..and my friends, CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1122803592619070222005-07-31T17:31:00.000+08:002005-07-31T17:53:12.626+08:00After what seemed like months... i finally went back to church today... felt weird..hehe..and when i came home.. i watched a DVD on the Exodus History and had the sudden interest to read up on it...hmmmm...i think i'll get down to it later... "No kingdom should be built on the back of slaves".. this quote set me thinking about alot of things.. how mankind treat each other nowadays is shocking CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1122529136802697672005-07-28T13:32:00.000+08:002005-07-28T13:38:56.806+08:00its lunch hour now, i don have much of an appetite..hmmm..its the PMS thing..Just got off the phone not too long ago with baby and we talked about me losing weight..hah..well.. its more like i think i need to lose weight.. i just need to lose 5kg and toned up..thats all and im contented...i hate work in some ways cos i have no time to exercise... i miss doing the sports i used to do..lets see...:CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1122514268844917162005-07-28T09:21:00.000+08:002005-07-28T09:31:08.850+08:00Argh...im so touched and at the same time im so filled with guilt...yesterday i had a meeting that ended at 730m.. it was suppose to end at 645 but it started late so it got dragged on... the thing is that..im not even complaining about the meeting.. but the fact that 30 stories down, baby was waiting for me for about an hour already.. i was feeling bad and anxious (though he used to make me waitCJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1122446067131472992005-07-27T14:23:00.000+08:002005-07-27T14:34:27.140+08:00im happy... i love my friends and family and i appreciate their concern and all.. those friends who were with me during one of my most difficult times.. i have yet to say thank you formally.. so here goes.. THANK YOU DARLINGS! i love you guys..things have been fine so far and i thank God for that...Baby thank you for not forcing me but giving me time to build up my trust in you... yesterday when CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1122169568856201472005-07-24T09:34:00.000+08:002005-07-24T09:56:46.656+08:00my roses!! love them love them.....my life has been really mundane, nothing much to shout about...BUT im still happy.. i feel so blessed for the people I have in my life,my family, my friends(who are like siblings to me..heh) and of course you...I see the effort to be a good man, im touched and i appreciate it...hehe.. its so silly, coming up with more weird endearments for each other...first itCJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1121817560091980502005-07-20T07:56:00.000+08:002005-07-20T07:59:20.096+08:00im so happy!! he got me my favourite flowers.. hehe... i got surprised with my favourite flowers yesterday..it was so sweet of him...~it's so nice to be with you~ ..hehhe.. thank you baby...kk... i'll post the pics tonight..heheh.. gtg work!!.. urgh.. hate it..CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1121251236974148172005-07-13T18:38:00.000+08:002005-07-13T18:40:36.980+08:00i want to move on from the past and look to the future with an optimistic view...how funny things turned out..hehe..but im happy... baby boink boink boink!so much to do.. so much to see.. hehe...CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1121002938797458532005-07-10T21:39:00.000+08:002005-07-10T21:42:18.803+08:00my new image! heh..not really done on purpose, stupid bad hair day that turnedout quite alright..haha..ive always been into messy hairstyles anyway..marilyn, nicole, fadhilla...and more... i love you guys!! my pubbing/clubbing/drinking/chilling buddies!! i love u girls loads...hehe.. sorry for being a party pooper the other day..btw, the pics have all been uploaded.. tho most turned out blur and CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1120284050388941672005-07-02T13:56:00.000+08:002005-07-02T14:00:50.400+08:00hahaha, my new experimented look... just trying to see how i will look like w/o allthose butt hugging apants/skirts and fitting tops..ahah. thats what he calls it..i haven worn baggy outfitsfor a long long long time and it feels good...i think its sexy to dress like that..hahah..Oh guys..im sorry I did not upload the pics for so long.. go see!! i uploaded it already..lol..and IM SO PISSED WITH CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1120106426311259062005-06-30T12:38:00.000+08:002005-06-30T12:40:26.316+08:00So happy! got these 2 really nice tops from mango, a black off-shoulder top and a green funky halter.. cant wait to wear them... parties!!!!!!Finally got the tickets to CM concert... hmmmm.. i feel bad.. too much money down the drain... worth it!!! hahaha... shop shop.. i wanna shop again.. so much to do so much to see...CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1119946501010845712005-06-28T16:09:00.000+08:002005-06-28T16:15:01.016+08:00Life has been pleasant for the past 2 weeks.. not like i can remember anything beyond that.. caught a few movies here and there.. hung out.. haven been drinking and going to much parties.. so thats a good start.. sorry i haven been updating..hah..busy busy..things are pretty much ok with life.. not saying much.. but things are ok i guess.. we're just happy.. lets all be happy people.. hehe.. CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1117380214403588672005-05-29T23:17:00.000+08:002005-05-29T23:23:34.410+08:002 more days till my grandparents arrive.....I dont seem as excited already..butof course i still look forward to meeting them.... Work is fine but its getting tooroutine its boring me... i spent most of my first week reading newspapers!!Both chinese and english...lol.... for the chinese papers, i just rely on the picto try to make sense of what the hell im reading..hah...heh....life's been prettyCJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1116983143761438832005-05-25T09:02:00.000+08:002005-05-25T09:05:43.766+08:00I wasn't a third party, neither that I flirt around, neither did I cheat....Yet I am I hurting the most.... Everything is fine and dandy for everyone,but Im still stuck where I am.... Trying to make sense of whatever happenedand losing two of the most precious beings I love......CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1116814129452190542005-05-23T10:02:00.000+08:002005-05-23T10:08:49.456+08:00The hardest thing to mend is a broken heart...Time doesn't neccessarily heal it, its what caused the pain that cantake away the pain... It sounds easy for alot of people...but its not...above the deceit and betrayal, there is still love.......CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1116655175740287952005-05-21T13:55:00.000+08:002005-05-21T13:59:35.746+08:00Sorry...blog traffic has been really slow this week...was caught up with alot of stuffs..... Finally I'm done with video editing...didnt have to redo it..haha..even got the thumbs up for it... not bad for someonewho hates avid..lol... but wish i had more time so i can do better.....Gonna just chill before I start work...can't wait!!!! work myself silly willy!!Kk.. those of you who have bugging meCJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1116182509146753542005-05-16T02:37:00.000+08:002005-05-16T02:41:49.150+08:00I wish all these is just a dream....Pls make all these go away....How can one year ago be so different from now....should i... shouldnt i.....should i...its so difficult to decide......pls guide me me and tell me what to do.......CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1115645177160658102005-05-09T21:24:00.000+08:002005-05-09T21:26:17.163+08:00i don know who to trust anymore...im hearing so much...feeling so much....im confused...i don kno what i shld be feeling now...is there really a fine line between hate and love...i don know..i cant tell already...CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1115538846875296682005-05-08T15:42:00.000+08:002005-05-08T15:54:06.970+08:00Im sleepy... haven been sleeping much.. But i have to stay awake to catch my weeklydose of Bollywood action later..lolReally tired from the last 2 days..finally I can stay home today and rest my legs...The shoot was very tiring yesterday, and I swear I could have fallen asleep while standing..thanks to Izzy for the crazy night!After the shoot, had to rush down for family gathering, which I was CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1115422968194907612005-05-07T07:38:00.000+08:002005-05-07T07:42:48.200+08:00Yawn...slept only for 3 hrs...all the fondue with Izzy made me super hyperand couldnt sleep..so was on the phone with my friend..thanks alot pal...Late for shoot..but wth, i'll take a cab down.........Went out with Izzy yesterday just to relive our looney days, with lots of photos toshow..lol...oh well... Ive just uploaded the pics so...In an automated voice....*pls click the PHOTOS link under CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1115276157121403312005-05-05T13:54:00.000+08:002005-05-05T14:55:57.226+08:00To start off my entry, I would like to stress to all pet owners to CLEAN UP AFTER YOUR PET!Almost stepped onto dog poo twice today. If you dont have the responsibility to do so, dont geta pet...I had 9 dogs and I cleaned up after each of them...so if you should do so too..Hope everything goes well tomorrow..Im nervous...Actually not that nervous...just a lil' bit for nowJust got a call for a CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1115178754520600402005-05-04T11:40:00.000+08:002005-05-04T11:54:25.040+08:00Yesterday I swear I was so pissed with a certain RAT! that I could just break any neckthat I lay my hands on. But come to think of it...seriously... Don't know don't care don't bother.But be warned that my patience will run out someday...and whatever I choose to do with myfeelings is jolly well up to me, you FREAKING BASTARD/BITCH!You want the truth...K..I still love him... but if you want him toCJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1115032144148243922005-05-02T17:45:00.000+08:002005-05-02T19:13:10.266+08:00I never thought much of Kelly Clarkson, but ever since she broke away from thediva kind of league, I'm beginning to like her songs. The latest is "Behind these hazel eyes"Seems like just yesterday You were a part of me I used to stand so tallCJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1114948337204150622005-05-01T19:39:00.000+08:002005-05-01T19:52:17.206+08:00Gawd, there were so many people in town today...........a disadvantage for short people like me... Thought I was gonna spend the day rotting at homeor finally stay home for a day and not go out. Hah, but got pulled out of boredom bySamuel. Haha, shopped around in preparation for our "BIG BANG" competitionthat will take place when we finally have enough money..will tell you more abt it next time..CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1114825239131274592005-04-30T09:37:00.000+08:002005-04-30T09:40:39.130+08:00YAY! Gonna go get my Sony T3/T77 (haven decided) and fossil watch today!! Retail therapy...lol..Hmmmm, after that, got to get my mom the Citigem watch that she has been hinting. Well, guessmy Nike sneakers will have to wait....=) it's ok, mommy's more important.Love yall!CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1114680903147787792005-04-28T17:32:00.000+08:002005-04-28T17:35:03.146+08:00HAH.... My camera whore moments... that made me late in picking my sister up from school... lolCJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1114648433510502672005-04-28T08:17:00.000+08:002005-04-28T08:33:53.510+08:00watched Russell Peters again with my girls yesterday! Was so fun.Bitched about Richie, Hilton, Lohan and Duff and their chihuahuas..lolAnd Nicole and Aisyah says they can imagine me with a chihuahua on one arm. ME?! *rolls eyes and speaks in the highest pitch* Whatever!!!..hahHmmmm...Russell Peters says if an Icelandic and Cuban mated, theirkid will be a Little Ice Cube... So Im Chinese-Filipino.CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1114408380999505722005-04-25T13:34:00.000+08:002005-04-25T21:48:10.186+08:00 11th March 2004 -- 25th April 2005We still have feelings for each other, but we decided to choose to end it while its still good.The past year has been great for us, sharing our lives together. Right now we chose to be friends, whatever the future holds,whether we will ever get back together or not, I don't know.I'll leave it up to fate. I still love Eddie alot, but I'm CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1114304258567904212005-04-24T08:31:00.000+08:002005-04-24T09:20:12.443+08:00Ive got music on my blog!!! Finally.I feel energetic today... I think Im probably one of those weird ppl who wakes up at5am on a Sunday *hey I'd sleep in if I can, but sleeping is a waste of time..haha*Did sit ups, skipped and some gymnastics... sweated it out to release endorphines!Hah, tho I don think I'm going to lose weight with all these excercises (not whenI have pancakes ad whole lot of CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1114272398875910972005-04-23T23:37:00.000+08:002005-04-24T00:06:38.876+08:00Finally!! Just came back from meeting my JC friends. Man, I miss them so much!!It wasn't even a planned meeting..it was like "are you in town? no? yes? ahh, just come down and meet up"Just chilled and chatted all the way... From TCC in taka to One Fullerton's Baker's Inn.Hah, I ate alot today la. Strawberry milkshake!, chicken teriyaki sandwhich... damn,Im hungry again.Samuel samuel, still the CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1114162933069358482005-04-22T17:08:00.000+08:002005-04-23T13:39:36.216+08:00don know what to update..jus gonna type what comes to mind....piggie-back rides, tau huay, bowling, photo hunt, pink scrap book,the endless walk from here to nowhere, surprises...I had alot of fun during those times...i wish i could go through them again...I miss them.. but right now, all I can do is sit back and wish/pray really hard that I can relive them once again...Things seem bleak at this CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1114086046765204912005-04-21T20:16:00.000+08:002005-04-21T20:20:46.766+08:00Heard the song 'Collide' by Howie Day... nice...CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1113962689756420002005-04-20T10:00:00.000+08:002005-04-20T10:08:49.200+08:00Mark today as today is the day i fell in love again!...with Gibson..He is black, but very sleek, a good looker.... Man, if only I can get my hands on itand play it ..... Haha, pls ah im talking about a guitar.What were you thinking... Take a look at it..its an ElvisDove....CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1113884532602960432005-04-19T12:14:00.000+08:002005-04-19T13:54:24.436+08:00Jus finished talking to my boss. Im still rather undecided whether I want to go back to work..hmmm..was talking to him and those guys from work were shouting at the background "C.J! COME BACK TO WORK! U R OUR MOTIVATION!!"...lol..say im thick-skinned..but they did shout that..even my manager laughed...Understandable ah, since there are not any pretty girls at work..muahahaha..damn, a bullet cant CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1113871951883585292005-04-19T08:49:00.000+08:002005-04-19T08:52:31.893+08:00Dilemma Dilemma....Audition at Hype Records. But shld I go....?!?Aye..... have to think whether I really want it right...I mean, if Im gonna end up losing interest, then what's the point..shld I?Urgh.. I think too much la.. maybe I shld just go ahead and have fun..go crash and burn..lallallalalalalaalaCJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1113727346809581342005-04-17T16:26:00.000+08:002005-04-17T16:42:26.810+08:00The first time i heard this song, it wasnt Lifehouse singing it.It was someone else. He was singing it loudly and he didnt even mind that I was sniggering at him. He went out of tune, =) tone-deaf if i might add.But that was my favourite version of this song...Lifehouse : "Everything"Finally here once speak to meI want to feel you, I need to hear youYou are the light that's leading me to the CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1113450040169405902005-04-14T11:39:00.000+08:002005-04-14T18:08:16.543+08:00Its another new day!! Hmm...not going out today..got baby sitting to do...sister..and i promised mom that i'll stay home. felt bad cos i have been coming home late andshe hasnt seen me since monday.So im gonna be a good girl and stay home to do housework (marvel in that!) and have dinner at home...so far my comp has been good, no hang ups or whatever....and it moves fast...lets see...what shld i CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1113403191753646232005-04-13T22:30:00.000+08:002005-04-13T22:39:51.753+08:00HAH! had a nice day today. Went out with Zarina and Nicole.Been quite some time since we went out together, a mini Girl's Day Out (G.D.O)!!heh.. was fun.. did the usual bitching and stupid stuffs and taking silly pics!heh.. we even got a birthday prezzie for a certain someone. Can't tell who yet, or nikkie and zar will kill me..lol... K.. nicole had to go home to do housework (so hardworking, CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1113368634310941772005-04-13T12:50:00.000+08:002005-04-13T13:03:54.310+08:00I didnt lie, neither did I give a false impression. I waswho you met me as. I just somehow changed. Now it feels like im learning to walk all over again. Its noteasy, but its a step at a time.CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1112277745525377352005-03-31T21:54:00.000+08:002005-03-31T22:02:25.526+08:00everyone is behaving as though there is more than one of me.They think i have to be at their beck and call. Im so stressed and pulled in alldirections that im so near a breakdown. Sometimes I have to be at 3 different places at the same time.People throw tanturm at me, get mad at me and all just cos i dont happen to have three of me.I feel hurt. I need time to myself too. its the holidays, but I CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1111848571859316962005-03-26T22:44:00.000+08:002005-03-26T22:49:31.860+08:00lonely, im so lonely, im so lonely...i don't want to go. im not even excited about it. i don't know why.i wish they will just cancel it. Im not even interested, not even from the start,i just played along, as long as it made everyone happy.But then, I'm not even eager to please.I see it as a chore, a duty but not one which i undertake with enthusiasm.Hopefully things get better.Yawnz.. all this CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1111070952512519852005-03-17T22:43:00.000+08:002005-03-17T22:49:12.513+08:00I want these!! okay, minus the earrings, since baby got them for me already.And meet KukuMalu!! So this is how it looks like...CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1111050134161351182005-03-17T16:58:00.000+08:002005-03-17T17:02:14.163+08:00honesty does not neccessarily just speaking the truth, italso mean not hiding things.Treat others how you want to be treated,so if you cant be honest with me. dont expect me to be honest with you.I tried...but treat me how u want to be treated...CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1110633103438963812005-03-12T20:53:00.000+08:002005-03-12T21:11:43.440+08:00Today is such a fulfilling day!!Let's see, I lazed around my morning. Went to a birthday party in the afternoonand ate so much although I was still full from the fish&co yesterday.At the party, there was this really cute baby. Can you believe it, he weigh 12kg and he is barely two.Was taking pictures with him and all cos he clung on to me anyway. Then left it ( i mean 'him') on the floorto go eatCJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1110290688251514702005-03-08T21:46:00.000+08:002005-03-08T22:04:48.253+08:00Life has its ups and downs, it's good and bad. It's unavoidable.But lately I have been letting whatever problems that I have, bog me down.Sometimes those problems are just a speck of dust that I magnify.It's bad enough that there are problems/ppl that I have to face, I make things worst for myselfby being an emotional basketcase (yes i admit i have been one lately).I'm sorry for being that way, CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1109850359448235082005-03-03T19:36:00.000+08:002005-03-04T20:11:43.446+08:00hmmmm... i like tohave FUN!!!!!! ya know, i would love to take a diploma in laughing & spontaniety.Ive decided to start up a donation fund. Not to worry, all the money willnot go to some unknown organisation that won't let u know where the money went to.*Donations will all go to my much needed retail therapy... yeah ive been feeling quirky and weird off late,thats why i need to undergo therapy.. CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1107647636255882122005-02-06T07:51:00.000+08:002005-02-06T07:53:56.256+08:00i used to like changes. or unpredictability.
but now i realise that there are certain changes i certainly
abhore. from wat i observe, everyone says and shows that it is normal
for that kind of change. i did not really agree..
but now i think i do... maybe it is normal after all.CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1107052219926621262005-01-30T10:24:00.000+08:002005-01-30T10:30:19.926+08:00Recently, I have been overwhelmed by my insecurities.
I never thought those insecurities existed, or maybe I was just in denial.
I hate feeling the way I'm feeling and maybe it is the cause that lands me in the state I'm in.
She told me to talk abt my insecurities.....but I don't know whether I shld.
It's true what she said, that it eats me from inside.
It comes and go, I'm still trying to CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1106456742154008752005-01-23T13:02:00.000+08:002005-01-23T13:05:42.156+08:00To me, the best thing in the world is knowing i have
people to care and love me. Whether it is one or a hundred people.
CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1104628018258179632005-01-02T09:02:00.000+08:002005-01-02T09:06:58.256+08:00!!oh eibbe evol i
ydad uoy evol.
uoy rof boG knaht.....CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1103899957907627142004-12-24T22:42:00.000+08:002004-12-24T22:52:37.906+08:00Christmas is jus 1 and a half hr away.. I should rejoice in Christ 's birth.
But my dear Lord, I'm not happy....... I have no joy to share today .....
I hope Lord hears my prayer....
I miss my grandfather so much... its tearing me up inside.
My mom started crying while cooking halfway through cos she misses her father, knowing she will never see him again. I had to act nonchalent about it... I CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1103881075051746912004-12-24T17:33:00.000+08:002004-12-24T17:37:55.053+08:00My mood is spoilt. Seems like I don't feel festival anymore.
Was still happily cooking with my mom awhile ago.
Maybe I'm just tired... I don't know... yeah maybe I am...
I will not swear so I'll keep my cool. Though the weather is so warm it makes me feel
like cursing my head off... But I'll keep my cool... Not today, not tomorrow...
I'll try to be nice... but if it does not work... i'll still CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1103545801643583672004-12-20T20:26:00.000+08:002004-12-20T20:30:01.643+08:00I think life is passing by too fast...
it is literally fleeting by.... Im not complaining, just commenting.
There was once, I was wishing that time would just fly by because I wanted
to get it over and done with an exam.
Someone told me off, though i forgot who. that person said that I was being selfish,
there may be someone out there who probably is spending the last few days wth their love CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1101880344421790912004-12-01T13:41:00.000+08:002004-12-01T13:52:24.420+08:00urgh..the weather is so hot today..i feel like im gonna start sizzling anytime.
the later half of my day yesterday turned out quite pleasant. somehow I met heinz on the way
from giving tuition.
Haha, I think I happened to be a the right place at the right time. Well, poor sweetie has got some problems
so just hung out. It was so odd. I was walking towards him and the next thing I know, we were CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1101555770214774182004-11-27T19:41:00.001+08:002004-11-27T19:42:50.213+08:00should not have painted a picture for myself.....
all for nothing.......
CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1101555735554904652004-11-27T19:41:00.000+08:002004-11-27T19:42:15.553+08:00should not have painted a picture for myself..........
CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1101393459534292682004-11-25T22:35:00.001+08:002004-11-25T22:44:24.193+08:0011 March is just 11 March....
It's not just 11 March ...it means alot more than that to me...
Just wanna do hug him now....CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1101278743132952092004-11-24T14:33:00.000+08:002004-11-24T14:50:21.370+08:00today izyan and i baked cookies.
it was our first try without professional guidance.. heh..it was so much fun..
haha..we kept trying to make it smaller..and SOMEONE have a terrible case of BUTTER fingers.. hahaha.... but before that, we went blading.. hmmm.. haven't been to the beach in such a long time... and we both fell on our butts... yan almost cried.. she msged her boyfren to complain.. CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1100745901100178012004-11-18T10:35:00.000+08:002004-11-18T10:45:01.100+08:00yawn!! sleepy.. but i have to wake up early to do my script...
yesterday my area director approached me to do a voice recording for Toys "R" Us Christmas
promo. lol, he didnt like the version jamie yeo did (cos he said that he doesnt even like her)... at first it really sounded like a great idea.. to walk into a toys r us store and hear myself..
haha..glad today is my last day at work...
but my CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1100355472184400462004-11-13T22:04:00.000+08:002004-11-13T22:17:52.183+08:00HAH! finally i have the time to update my blog.
been really busy working lately.. thats why...
its weird, this whole holiday, i did not even meet up with any of my friends.
sigh..wonder how they are...hey guys!! hope yall are fine..
other than working, ive been reading alot nowadays..
lol, its eddie.. he buys books to read and now im hooked too..
as a matter of fact, i just came back from CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1099715791813008082004-11-06T13:31:00.000+08:002004-11-06T12:36:31.813+08:00" It's better to be loved than to love"
heard this so many times before... never gave much thought about till last night..
i finally came with an agreement with that sentence...
you know when you love someone, i think its not enuff...
you need that person to love you too...
a one sided love is equivalent to pain...
its better not to love if its one-sided....CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1098478821562874872004-10-23T04:56:00.000+08:002004-10-23T05:00:21.563+08:00The time now is 5:00 a.m.
I finished work at 4:30 a.m.... haha... after 20 hrs of work im still not tired...
not YET... it was quite fun.. everyone stayed back to do work.... ate cup noodles and joke... so cool...
kind of pity some of my colleagues cos they have to go back in like 4 hrs to start on a full day shift..
urgh...waiting to feel sleepy.....CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1097379195378115192004-10-10T11:26:00.000+08:002004-10-10T11:33:15.380+08:00Had a dream last night.. of alot of people dying... being bombed... but the irony is that the dream was made out to be as though we deserve it. whatever is happening to this world..we are just reaping what we sow.
sad....
on a different note... i don't know...
life..bah.....what else can i say....
sometimes it gets so sickening that solitary is the only thing you need.
love, care, loyalty, CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1095922764055132332004-09-23T14:51:00.000+08:002004-09-23T14:59:24.056+08:00J'ai passe mon teste aujourd'hui.
Je parle J'TAIME a moi Francais Professeur!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!! il est vingt douze ans!!!
Je dix huit ans... haiz......
haha... j'aime Eddie Ho!! heh...
oh well... bonne journee!!CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1093845460490977172004-08-30T13:52:00.000+08:002004-08-30T13:59:33.653+08:00BMR is finally over, but feeling really stress cos i still have alot of assignments on..urgh.
just celebrated grandpas' birthday yesterday. Went to the temple and bought so much food and a durian birthday cake. it looks
pretty weird to put it infront of his tablet... people there were prayiing to the dead, while there we are celebrating the birthday of someone who has
passed on. the irony... ...CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1092386283247529752004-08-13T16:35:00.000+08:002004-08-13T16:38:03.246+08:00finally im back on track. last month has been a whirlewind ride and all, drwan back. Just realised i dont socialise much nowadays..must be all the homeworks... i guess everyone are equally tied up. Last 3 days was so packed!!
went back to my secondary school today to get my 250 surveys done.. finally.....
thanks to my teachers..they volunteered to help.. so sweet....... tomorrow must still go to CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1089540148558749462004-07-11T17:47:00.000+08:002004-07-11T18:02:28.560+08:00Grandpa got cremated today. Did not want to watch his coffin go into the fire, but somehow i still did. Everyone broke down and I cried again. When we marched out to send him to the crematorium, my grandma was wailing so loudly. we wanted to console her but we couldnt. we were not allowed to turn and look back on our journey, and my poor grandma was not allowed to follow..
there were alot of CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1088645751381756082004-07-01T09:20:00.000+08:002004-07-01T09:35:51.380+08:00updating my blog for the second day in a row. a rare sight.......
today is 1st of July, a new month... ...
Realised I have morphed into a different person. I don't know if its because
of school commitments or what other reasons that may be used, I seemed
to have lost interest in alot of things, which I might regret doing so in time
to come.
Life just seems to evolve around school and me me CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1088612244175297532004-07-01T00:11:00.000+08:002004-07-01T00:17:24.176+08:00so much assignments up till my neck... can hardly breathe.
grandfather is dying... starting to feel really upset about it.
thought i wont feel upset, but apparently i have feelings too
after all.
nothing materializing from my life as yet. just mundane and stress.
life is starting to get really boring. its routine, and basically have
nothing worth of anticipating with trepidation.CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1087515892215710212004-06-18T07:35:00.000+08:002004-06-18T07:44:52.216+08:00Its 7:37 am now.... yawnz.... im still hgalf awake.
i cant sleep thats why im up at such an ungodly hour.
school is starting in two days time, but i kindda have this
nagging hesitating anticipation...well, ya know looking forward
to it yet not wishing it'll come so soon.
My throat hurts like hell now. yesterday nicole and I went for our voice over,
and we recorded for six hours straight. voiceCJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1086621028644068232004-06-07T23:09:00.000+08:002004-06-07T23:12:33.056+08:00hurting.... just hurting so bad...
i wonder how you can muster whatever you have to push my hand away from you
its just like a slap across the face.....
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was so busy the past few days...running around and eating and eating and eating.
during the first few days it was alright..eating buffetts and all. then had dinner at the zoo (pls ah, not animal feeding time kind of thing ah). it was some dinner by the lake for all the delegates. food was good. so most of the time. we were always bored that we did alot of CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1085836416904068472004-05-29T21:08:00.000+08:002004-05-29T21:13:36.903+08:00so far everything at home has been good, had such a nice talk with momsie yesterday...love her to bits.
told her more abt my life, for example what i have been up to and all.. yeah.
my delegate is arriving tomorrow, somehow got a call just now saying that someone else will replace him. so its no more RUFINO BOMASANG, but RAMON BARIPO... so freakish, their names are almost the same...hope to have CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1085314803122415602004-05-23T20:15:00.000+08:002004-05-23T20:20:03.123+08:00Was with nicole at town yesterday for some stuff, and we made two new friends...
which was cool... but walking around just made me realise how much i want
to shop...grrrrrrrrr....burn Orchard Road!...hahaha
then i read amin's shopping list on his blog...argh...
im so gona save..need a job...
i want the bag from Xcessories, a sneaker from converse and a fossil watch..
those ppl out there who haveCJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1085033298745541032004-05-20T13:56:00.000+08:002004-05-20T14:08:18.746+08:00was listening to britney's song everytime, coincidently the lyrics sings
what im feeling. so don't have to do much thinking:
Come notice me
And take my hand
So why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1084946403377267232004-05-19T14:00:00.000+08:002004-05-19T15:26:04.773+08:00At thirteen, the air has quicken its pace
One before that, ruffled bedsheets tells of a tired soul
At time of symmetry, nature makes a failed attempt to wash away the numbness
Clocked at perfect score, betrayal is acknowledge with pride
At nine, the heart is led astray by the mind
Arrival of the auspicious digit, the blur vision of reality shines through
One before that, struggle from a CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1084706645158426972004-05-16T19:16:00.000+08:002004-05-16T19:24:05.156+08:00Its so hard trying not to be someone else.
As much as you deny it, you spend most part of your life trying to
be someone you are not, trying to be someone you envy,
trying to be someone who you think is better than you.
What's the point?!?
At the same time when you are trying to be someone else,
someone else is trying to be you. It has become such a habit that
we are not even sure whether we areCJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1084496839480899032004-05-14T08:58:00.000+08:002004-05-14T09:07:19.480+08:00This is my second entry today and I dedicate it to my mom:
Last night she got really ill, it really scared the shit out of me.
even my dad was so frightened that he immediately brought her to the doctor.
she said she felt cold and all and she kept trembling.
it may sound like some normal ailment to you all, but when you nearly lose
your mom more than twice, its really scary that i just kept CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1084496162770674112004-05-14T08:50:00.000+08:002004-05-14T08:56:02.770+08:00Been busy playing squash the past alternate days..
really bored anyway and i figured i have alot of extra fats and lipids to burn,
so why not. has been fun so thats good.
i do not know what my grandma is thinking, fourth time already and
have to change maid just to please her. every maid, she cant get along with them at all,
this new one is the fifth one, but she just keeps finding fault with CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1083905945710338052004-05-07T12:53:00.000+08:002004-05-07T13:03:32.623+08:00finally finished 3 days of work with the rest. so tired...
i just fall asleep immediately after each day. we had alot of fun, got to meet company big shots and all... haha...long story but kind of had an
offer for a sugadaddy...yeeeekkss....
but work was fun...haha..when work is tiring, got to do something to make it fun.
ate a $1.60 prata to (so ex!!) celebrate end of work.
Tash is freaking CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1082907605165859592004-04-25T23:39:00.000+08:002004-04-25T23:44:16.610+08:00Bored!CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1082907358586245312004-04-25T23:35:00.000+08:002004-04-25T23:40:10.076+08:00finally updated!CJnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5832785.post-1082906498175806602004-04-25T23:21:00.000+08:002004-04-25T23:25:49.793+08:00........................ its sunday 23:22:07CJnoreply@blogger.com